God is calling YOU to be DIFFERENT!

I find it so very interesting that when you are misunderstood by people that that in itself automatically gives them the license and liberty to attack your character, disqualify you, and slander your name and say all types of evil things about you, all because you are different. Because you don’t and refuse to walk to the beat of their own drum. Just because you don’t behave the way they desire you to behave or conform to their ways doesn’t make you less than or insignificant. Just because you think differently and express your uniqueness differently from them doesn’t make you crazy or weird. It just makes you YOU. And it’s suppose to be that way and it’s suppose to feel that way because It makes you special. It makes you beautiful. Because God made you to be different in the world. To see differently than others. To communicate your insight and understanding differently. GOD DID THAT FOR YOU. HE DIDN’T AND STILL DOESN’T INTEND FOR YOU TO BE ANYONE ELSE BUT THE ONE HE HAS TAKEN PRECIOUS TIME CREATING. That would be an insult to Him! It also would be rather quite boring if you ask me. Your not paying God any dues or giving Him any credit for being like someone else who doesn’t even know who they are. Stop looking at the world to find or recreate your identity. STOP USING THEM AS A POINT OF REFERENCE! That’s just pure confusion and madness! It doesn’t make any sense at all! The answer is not out here (in the world) my sister and my brother, no, the answer is located deep inside of you. So accept your strangeness and weirdness. Embrace every peculiar thing about you. Love you. Discover you. No apologies. Have it no other way. God doesn’t want you to be focus on pleasing or meeting the expectations or standards of anybody else except His. Because he sees you at a VERY High standard because that’s just the way HE had created you to be and live. To walk higher. To live higher. So much higher than the “status quo” or popular culture’s dictations in the world. It’s all a fantasy! That life is just not real. But God’s life for you through His Son Christ is the only REAL life that is worth living and discovering. God loves you unconditionally. He loves you just the way you are. You are perfect in His sight. And your purpose exceeds and transcends so much higher than any man on this earth that can suggest and tell you otherwise. ITS SO MUCH HIGHER! You are a Designer’s original and God made you, purposed you, especially to be different. So let your light shine bright! That’s your God given right. Forget the naysayers. The mockers. The haters. The accusers. FORGET about everyone else and focus on making your Father proud. Because you are His delight. Get bold. Stand strong. You are not alone. GOD IS WITH YOU AND IN YOU (IF you have accepted Jesus Christ into your heart as your Lord and Savior) EVERY STEP OF THE WAY AND HE PROMISED IN HIS WORD TO NEVER LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU!! Let the people talk. Let them be negative. Let them scratch their heads and look at you in pure confusion because of how you choose to live your life! Stay positive. Stay free. And fly. Rise above the clouds and break free from the world’s social finite BOXED system! You have been called to Kingdom living.. it’s a higher call …God is depending on you to bring Him glory and to be the light that the world desperately NEEDS to see…so that those who are in darkness can see God’s light radiating and beaming out of you, which is His glory inside of you. For we all were predestined and ordained to be unique glorious beings. For we all were created and purposed to be light bearers. That’s only if you BELIEVE. And once you do…you go out in this world and be you…That’s the REAL YOU( and not the carbon copy  fake somebody else ) that God has made you to be…and you do it beautifully. ..make our Father proud!

 “And so, dear brothers, I plead with you to give your bodies to God. Let them be a living sacrifice, holy—the kind he can accept. When you think of what he has done for you, is this too much to ask? Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but be a new and different person with a fresh newness in all you do and think. Then you will learn from your own experience how his ways will really satisfy you (Romans 12:1-2  TLB).”



Contentment breeds Suprises

I have been doing some worrying lately. I have been very discontented with my life. I have been walking with God faithfully, totally surrendered since the summer of 2011, and mind you this walk hasn’t been a perfect journey. I had my “ups and downs”, messed up a more than a few times, had fallen and “bruised my knee,” but I kept getting back up and progressively moving forward to living a godly life that my Father desires me to live. Because at the end of the day it pleases Him for me to live this way, and my desire more than anything is to please my Heavenly Father. Plus, as a bonus, I too reap the same benefits. I also am pleased and at peace and overall happy with my life.
Although, like I’d mentioned earlier, I’ve been a participant in some wrong kinds of mindsets lately. Lately, My thinking has been very crappy. Instead of consistently moving forward, I have been having more than a few shares of “pity parties,” drowning myself OVERTIME with all my cares and worries about myself and my life, just completely weighing myself down with my crappy thinking. I have been having all kinds of anxiety attacks about my future and I’ve been very discontented about my now situation and my present circumstances. “I WANT MORE GOD! I WANT MORE GOD! I WANT MORE!” “It’s not fair…why can’t I be like everybody else *pouting*” “Look at them, look at them Lord…If I had this or if I had that I would be sooooooooo much more happy…I would be soooooooo much creative and effective with my purpose *whines,*” all are conversations that I would faithfully have with my loving Father. I felt like my “waiting period” was too extreme. I felt like I had waited long enough and it should be soon time like NOW, that I should see some changes taking place or the promises or manifestations  coming in FULL EFFECT of all that He had promised me. I kept thinking to myself like, “what now? What more could He do now?” I was the clay anxiously, squirming, asking my Potter day in and day out “Are you finish yet? Are you done yet? Are we wherever we supposed to be in this process YET???!!” I thought I had looked pretty good. I had my godliness and purity walk down to science. I felt like I had went through enough of my fair share of trials and testings’ (which would be a huge laugh to the great leaders, walkers, and examples of faith in the bible) and it’s NOW, according to me “the clay”, for “show and tell all time” of what my Father “the Potter” has done! But I was far from being finished…I was missing something.
That something was “contentment.” 1 Timothy 6:6 says “Now godliness with contentment is great gain.” Ouch! See truthfully I’ve been patient you know the whole “waiting on God and His perfect timing” quite deal, patiently waiting for His grand scheme of things to manifest concerning my life and my ministry, but in my waiting period (O and I’m STILL waiting) my attitude, my mindset…I admit wasn’t the best, it totally said another. It was horrible! I had been acting like a spoiled brat, a 3-year-old, who wanted her way NOW because I saw fit that it was “time.”
Ohhhhh but I am very thankful that I do not serve a God, who bends and Buckles down at my every cry and plea! Trust me those tears may have worked for my then boyfriends in the past, or my mom, or my friends, but you can’t have it your way with the God who created you and truly knows what best for you. Smh nope! He didn’t budge… Not even an inch. Yet, he did comfort me in my distressing moments by speaking comforting words to me personally or through special people whom He sent my way.  On the other hand, I got the silent treatment at my many repetition of prayers, like He clearly didn’t hear me pray that same prayer the night or day before, or the 2, 3, 4, 5 or gazillion days and nights before! So in love, He had given me the silent treatment, because truthfully I knew better. My God had proven himself enough in my life (If you only knew my story…wait on it!) that He has and still is Faithful and a Deliverer and a Promise Keeper. So I pretty much asked for it *smiles*. But during those times of “silent treatment” I was forced to get in my Word wherein He also met me there and instructed me to mediate and study on “Contentment” and I obeyed.
In my study I came across those same scriptures (based on contentment) that I already knew and you know, we believers tend to say over and over and say out loud before the preacher can get it entirely out His mouth in his sermon on Sunday mornings…but this time it was different, instantly, those same scriptures became fresh and new to my eyes like “Wow, that was there!” It was a brand new personal revelation to me! It’s amazing how scriptures you thought you had known before all of a sudden makes sense to you when you are actually going through that experience. Shortly after, the Lord spoke to me and said:

“Daughter, contentment is an attitude. It is a lifestyle and I called you to walk therein. Do not get caught up on the need and want of “things” and desiring certain  relationships, because they are not the important thing and are temporal… passing away. Your great pleasure and exceedingly great reward is in ME. I WILL fill you until you overflow. I WILL keep you and sustain you. I am the God of peace, love and joy. Come to me all who are heavily burden and I WILL give you rest for your soul…Rest in me daughter. ”

It was like a light switched had turned on and at His revelation of His Word, I was full of regret and sorrow from my behavior prior and so I repented immediately and then received His forgiveness. I just thank God that He is so patient, caring, encouraging, and never changes but will meet you where you are in your now, in the present moment you face and bring light to it so you can clearly “SEE” and continue to move progressively forward. I’m learning in this season the fruit of being content. I’m learning to be satisfied with my share and keeping my eyes on my plate and off everyone else’s. I’m learning to keep my eyes on the Prize and that is CHRIST!

So my Word for you (and for me too) is to TRUST GOD no matter what the situation looks like and for ALL the desires of your heart that He has given you (make sure those are His desires, through prayer and it being aligned with His written Word). Put Him first above ALL and do not and I mean do not model after this world! But allow God to TRANSFORM your thinking and conduct into alignment with our prime example, which is Christ. Everything that you have today is everything you need. So be content, and allow His grace to be sufficient for you. Let God concern himself with your tomorrow, and live this day like it is your last day with Him, for He desires more than you that you have such things that you desire, but at the right time because He knows what’s BEST for you and when is it BEST for you to have them, He will give them to you freely. It is written that He will not withhold no good thing from us. So if it’s not in our life right now, then that JUST means it’s not good for us and we are not ready to handle it. Simple as that! Remember God SEVERELY loves and cares about YOU and he will not give you anything out of His perfect time knowing that it will destroy you, especially if you are not prepared for it. God desires to develop you and mature you. He wants to clean your house, that you dwell in. He wants to get rid of all that filth that lays active or dormant in your heart and mind. He wants to free us all the way. so we won’t have to be chasing after a man or a woman or after things that are not even the answer or the cure!  More than anything He desires relationship. He is the cure! The answer to our sorrows the medicine to our open wounds. God is the only one who can complete you and give you wholeness. God is and forever will be the source of your life, not things or people. Life is truly a gift and it’s MUCH more important than being satisfied of having these temporal passing things and relationships in the earth.
And so for the rest of your time here on earth my friend,  build your relationship in God and Enjoy Him, which is priority 1, for He is truly the exceedingly GREAT REWARD!  And before you know it, like a blink of an eye, while you are busily practicing the fruit of contentment and enjoying God, your first love and Heavenly Father, that thing (s) you’ve been desiring like a wife, husband, new house, ministry etc. will smack you dead on in the face *POW*.  As if God is saying, “SURPRISE!!!! IT’S TIME DAUGHTER!!IT’S TIME SON!!”


P.s. Be patient. Wait on God. He who began a good work in you shall finish it. It’s worth the wait, every single bit of it!



TRUTH: The Human Perspective

“Why are we here?” “Who are we?” “What are we?” “How did all of this begin?” “How did all of what we see, taste, hear, touch, and smell form or originate into being?” These are all the present questions that encircles the individuals of this world, whether if we say it outwardly or ponder it inwardly. From the human perspective, they (these questions) are not as easy to define in a simple sentence. So we have integrated together this general knowledge about this world that is broken down into parts such as science, math, philosophy, arts… “The world’s knowledge”, to explain such a mysterious, unique, but exciting phenomenon (the Who, What, Why, How, and When). We go into great lengths in our limited strengths and faculties of the mind to try and understand… to try and “get” the complexities of our being and the complexities of the world itself. We are in the world, but only for a VERY SHORT period of time. And who even knows the “exact timing” of our temporary stay.

We go into great lengths, striving, with all our innovations and worldly discoveries, grand ideas and experiments… forrrrrrrrr what again??? To make life on earth much better? Tooooo try to “stretch it”, more specifically our life expectancy here on earth?

We try to belong to it. We grasp hold to it… THIS EARTH… in every way possible because there is still this underlying yet ever present fear of the unknown…our ignorance…the absence of truth. Truth has so many facets in the eye of a human…it can be defined in so many ways… but it’s fragmentary and impartial. Can we trust it? Should we readily agree with it and adopt it as acceptable, as safe, as absolute? No answer.

Sooooo…. we continue to fear. We fear man. We fear the uncertainties. We fear our future. We fear natural disasters. We fear diseases. We fear our FEARS. We fear because there is no concrete visible evidence that we can draw from or make sense of in ourselves (relying totally on our own finite intellect, ability, and understanding) of answering the 1 million dollar question… “Why in the hell are we here?” We FEAR because we don’t know who we are. So we live in the moment… “Y.O.L.O. right?” Imprinting after one another…the manufacturing of carbon copied identities. We are unstable. We are Lost. All are battling this “identity crisis” and if we are not consciously battling with it, then we surely have forged it or suppressed it. Yet many are not willing to readily admit or agree to such TRUTH.


• “The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge,
But fools despise wisdom and instruction (Proverbs 1:7 NKJV).”
• “For we know in part and we prophesy in part. But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away (1 Corinthians 13:9-10 NKJV).”
• “But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.”
• “Heaven and earth will pass away, but My words will by no means pass away (Matthew 24:35 NKJV).”
• “…As for man, his days are like grass; as a flower of the field, so he flourishes. For the wind passes over it, and it is gone, and its place remembers it no more (Psalm 103:15 NKJV).”
• “…And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God (Romans 12:2).”


I AM (my declaration)

I AM everything that He says that I AM. I exist separately and apart from others. I AM none like any other. I AM free. My thoughts can not be influenced upon unless I allow them to be. I AM in control of what and who comes into my life.  I have a choice. I have a choice to either accept or reject other conveyed ideas and people. I AM a living filter, filtering information constantly that comes through my gateways (my ears, my eyes, my mind and my heart). I AM the conductor of my vehicle. I can’t be defined by no one. I AM defined by God and what He says of me only. His thoughts is all that matters. What He says is the only true thing that stands constantly. I will not give power to anyone to control or influence my being. I AM my own. I AM an individual. I AM fully capable, competent, and knowledgeable of my world through the living God that I serve and who lives on the inside of me. So I stand confidently. Because I’m not alone.  I AM a supernatural yet physical representation of HIM.  I AM…Because  HE IS.



It’s 3:30 in the morning, on the 2nd day of 2014. For the last week I have been contemplating how I was to start and complete my first shared piece of writing for the New Year. I knew immediately the topic in which I would write on but I couldn’t quite find the words (that I would willingly share). For some reason it’s been a bit tugging for me to share my heart and mind on this blog that Cent & I started only a short 3 months ago. I have come to a couple of entwined conclusions as to why that is:

1) I sense that at some point this blog will see more eyes than my other two personal blogs. (That startles me.)
2) The level of transparency and intimacy of our posts opens me to the world on a level that I am not sure I am comfortable with.

After a bit of reflecting, both reasons sound completely silly. I am reminded of the visions and purpose God has given us for what CineticEnergy is to be. He has called for us to be open and unashamed. He wants us, through His strength, share the impact that He has had and still has on our lives. He wants us to choose to lay down our lives, forgetting those things that are behind us and pressing towards that which is before us. There is no room for doubt and fear. It isn’t about us. It’s not about me.

It’s all about Christ Jesus.

So, two titles & three introductions later, here I am.

My heart has been burdened by the knowledge that we are all yearning and searching for the same thing in this life: Love. Yes, all of us. We all feel the void within ourselves that requires filling. Now, that search looks so different when we look at every individual separately. Some turn to companionship of people, others material things, others education, some look to drugs/alcohol/food, while others think money and status will ease their inquiry—all leaving the individual with an even deeper void carved within themselves. Is that you? Have you been roaming about looking for the fulfillment that can only be found in One? Jesus. Everything that you would ever need can be found in Him. He is the very One to connect us back to what we all have searched for: Love. By His acts of reconciliation, through His life, death & resurrection, of humanity to Yahweh—God, the Father—we now have full access to perfect Love and all that Love entails. Scripture let’s us know that God is Love (1John 4:8). So, with this knowledge….why do we still search?  Well, I can only speak for myself. I some time find my heart aching when I think about what I don’t have. Discontentment. I find myself meditating on where I think I should be by now, what I haven’t accomplished, who & what I don’t have in my life.

There is a battle that I fight within myself to keep my mind on the prize. I fight to remember that my hope and fulfillment rests in my relationship with God. I fight the world, daily, that attempts to pull my heart from Him. I fight, mentally, to rest in the Love I so desperately need. It’s what we all must do. Resting as the beloved of Christ, as a child of God, is not an easy task. We are foreigners in a land that would rather have us live and operate as they do. A world that would prefer that we identified ourselves with it rather than our Redeemer. It is time, it has been time, that we take hold of our inheritance in such a way that the world sees that we have is nothing like anything that they have ever experienced. That they see the error in their void filling that they seek after the only true void filler there is. It’s long overdue that we emerge ourselves in the Love that we have found that when they see us all they can help to see is Love. Being no longer conformed to this world, no longer being passive towards the attacks that this world throw at us: it’s time to fight. Putting on the whole armor of Christ. Taking up the best weapons we have, the Truth of the Word & His Love.

I leave you a few lyrics that I found flowing in my heart that sort of guiding me into that post:

What the world needs now is Love, sweet Love
It’s the only thing that there’s just too little of
What the world needs now is Love, sweet Love,
No not just for some but for everyone.

No, not just for some, oh, but just for everyone.

Ready, Set, Fight!


New Resolution

It’s that time again my friend! Top of the year to you and yours!  Finally here, a brand new year, a fresh start, a clean slate to redo or correct all of the failures from the past year and to implement a new and improved action plan! You probably have created your new resolution list or are creating it now as we speak and checking it twice! Creating or listing all the goals, promises, and changes that you want to see manifested in your life. Advancing towards and putting in effect all of your ideas and all of your visions right?  Am I close? Willing to attain a goal (s) that will look something like this: This year of 2014 I will…

1.be more focus and diligent in school

2. Be a better friend

3. Be financially responsible

4. Start the Bible and finish it by the end of the year

5. Learn how to cook

6. Move into my own place (loft preferably)

7. Be more proactive with my business

8. Be more firm in saying “no”

9. Gain a true sense of who I really am

10. Dismantle all fears and fall forward

Well I got news for you! First, this is my own personal list (*smiles*). Yours may be similar or different, streaming with all these grandiose innovating ideas and life changing dreams! However, how can you truly be sure your will and desires are even God’s will and desires for you? Something to think about right? Although they are good ideas and they may have really come from a sincere place, neither you or I, in ourselves, have the ability to commit and finish these goals/changes without Help.

God is our Help. And He did not intend for us to navigate through life alone and to rely on our own limited abilities.

When God created you He created you a finished work. He was mindful of you before you even touched down onto earth or were formed in your mother’s womb (Jeremiah 1:5 ). He knew what your life would be like because he created it and he designed it to the very detail. His thoughts of you are to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you a hope and a future (Jeremiah 29.11). You were created because God loves you and He wants to share with you how much He loves you through close relationship with Him. He chose you in Christ before the foundation of the world to be holy and without blame before Him in love, having predestined you to adoption as a son/daughter by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will (Ephesians 1:4-5).  He desires for you to reign in life freely and full of joy and love through His provided grace and truth, which is found in His Son Christ.  Your book is indeed written and it is indeed a good book!

Once you begin to understand, believe, and trust this valuable truth, your life itself will then become a transforming eventful journey with God. And when you truly understand this, everything and everyone else becomes secondary.  God wants to do for you what no man will do and cannot do because it’s not in him to do so and it’s not in you to do it for yourself. When we look at the bigger scope of “Life”, there is much more to life than relationships, money, education, great-paying jobs, materialism, and self-indulgence. It’s so much more!  Yes, God has given us free will. But I believe that He has given us free-will, choice, to freely choose Him. He wants us to understand our great need for Him.  And without Him, none of what we chase after in life, these “things”, will truly sustain or fulfill us.  They are simply a chasing after the wind.  God is and should be priority one, the central focus and everything else —all of our great hopes and desires —will follow.

I am not at all saying that your list of improvements is bad. I am saying that God is Author of all and Finisher of all. He knows you better than you know yourself and he desires that you receive nothing less than best in this passing earthly life. And He desires to accompany you on this journey of life so that you will receive just that, His best! He doesn’t want you to get so plugged into this temporal life and forsake what’s more valuable and eternal, our loving relationship with Him .We were created  to worship God in spirit and truth and to live a purposeful life here on earth in Christ, who is our righteousness, our example. So let’s pattern our lives after Him and pick up our cross. Jesus said He who finds His life will lose it and He who loses his life for His sake will find it. Bring your desires to God because he does want you to have a fruitful and prosperous life, but your way of attaining to those things are a lot different from God’s. Remember His ways are higher than our ways and His thoughts are much higher than our thoughts. Allow Him to order your steps. Let His agenda be your agenda. Allow His resolution to be your resolution.

Happy New Year.


Confronting: Self

I’ve been selfish.
So concerned with how I would be effected by what You required of me, I’ve failed You.
I gave in.
I let my guard down, which only led me to uncertainty.
I forsook You and barely even realized it.
In turn, I played victim…even though for but a moment.
You entrusted me Your promise and I was willing to gamble it away at a moments notice.
For a moment I was actually confused.
How could I, after walking with You so closely, betray You?
I was so sure of myself.
I was so gun hold that I wouldn’t slip up like “they” had.
That was my first mistake.
I hadn’t realized that I put so much stock in my own ability.
I just knew that because I have eyes to see that the wool could never get close enough to blind me.
I was certain that falling was not an option,
Until I found myself on the edge of a cliff.
I found myself in a place you definitely did not lead me to.
I ignored every sign that urged me to turn left.
I went right.
Everything in me told me to go left.
But curiosity & desire seemed to consume me.
I battled with being the me You strategically molded and the me that was convenient at the time.
I yielded to my feelings instead of Your warning:
“He will destroy you.”
I grew more and more stubborn.
With every inch of grace, I took a mile.
Blinding my own eyes to every sign that I was falling.
My whole world shook
What shook me, though, more than the falling was what I met when it stopped.
I was caught by Your grace.
I turned my back and You bring me GRACE?!
“I don’t deserve Your grace.”
I was met with what shook me even further:
“At what point did you start believing that you ever did?
And when did you ever hold Me up to think that you could let Me down?
My grace is & will forever be sufficient for you.
So, Rise.”


Who was She?

I remember how I wanted to be that girl.  That girl that got all the attention and hated by women.  I wanted the look of perfection. But what I got instead was perpetual rejection. I switched roles a lot, whatever seemed suitable at that time. Conformity was a normality, but on the inside I was stricken deep and hurting painfully on the inside with frivolity. I wasn’t alive but I was dying. And the tears of my soul could not stop crying. I had grown into someone I did not recognize.  Masked by deception. Disguised in a bunch of lies. Drawing closer,  knocking on the door of my inevitable demise.  I was consumed in confusion. My thoughts of me more specifically my identity was a fusion of cultural hype and  human-bred malpractices.  And boy was I losing bad! World advertisement fed my unhealthy habits. Like a bandit I stole away every superficial piece, that could fill this deep abyss of a pit that could substitute this unmistakable void… the pride of the eyes and the lust of the flesh…cause me to plunge myself face forward into a ditch. Or more like mud, wallowing around in my vomit of mess. I just kept digressing… and digressing…falling…like light speed…down to my knees…LOST.


“_____, Come forth!”

Around 7 this morning  I woke up unusually “fired up!” I was getting myself ready for work and suddenly a Word came forth out of my belly, “Lazarus, Come forth!” At this time I was looking in the mirror brushing my teeth and replaying the word I just heard in my spirit over and over again in my mind “Lazarus, Come forth…Lazarus, Come forth…Lazarus, Come forth!” and the Word alone immediately got me excited and on fire! I’m like “ok God, I understand.”  So,I begin to think of God’s Word refering to all the promises of God both logos (God’s written Word) and  rhema (God’s revealed  Word) that he had spoken to me recently and in the past and I just went on a rampage! I started calling forth every promise that God had promised to me “My Doctorate, come forth!” “Virtuous Woman, come forth!” “Traveling around the world, come forth!” “Cinetic Energy, come forth!” “Healing in my body, come forth!” “Prosperity, Come forth!” “Prolific Writer and world renown speaker, come forth!”  “Open doors in high places in the presence of great men, come forth!” “CENTRA, COME FORTH!”

The Death of Lazarus

In the book of John Chapter 11, Jesus received word that Lazarus, Mary’s and Martha’s brother whom he dearly loved was sick.  After Jesus was notified of Lazarus’ present condition, He decided to wait 2 WHOLE days before going to see about Lazarus.  After the 2 days was up, Jesus decided to move and go see about Lazarus.  Meanwhile, Mary and her sister Martha were now mourning the loss of their brother Lazarus. News got back to Martha that Jesus was coming into town to see them, but Martha made it her business to go meet Jesus instead.  Upon arrival, Martha was upset and sad saying “Jesus if you hadn’t took all day-2 WHOLE days, my brother would have lived! (Centra’s plain translation)” Jesus responded calmly and said, “Your brother will rise again.” But Martha was under the impression that Jesus was refering to the last day, the resurrection and so she consented. However, Jesus corrected her and plainly told her that He was the resurrection saying , “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, shall live.  And whoever believes in Me shall never die, Do you believe this?”

So…I said all that to ask YOU what Jesus asked Martha 2000 years ago…”Do YOU BELIEVE this?” Do you believe that Jesus, the Son of God, came onto earth in full power and suffered many things so you didn’t have to suffer. Do you believe that He took on the very punishment that we rightfully deserved so we wouldn’t have to undergo it and that is DEATH! Do you believe that He died not only for our wrong doing, but our sicknesses, diseases, and every physical infirmity, so we could not only be healed, but receive eternal life–It doesn’t begin when you die but it begins NOW! Do you BELIEVE JESUS did all this so you can receive the promises of God which is longevity, prosperity, perfect health, a fulfilled life of all your deep rooted passions, dreams, and desires NOW! Do you believe that the same resurrection power that was in Jesus and that He used to tell Mary and Martha’s brother, “Lazarus, Come forth!”  out of his cave is in YOUBUT…you have to BELIEVE. And if you haven’t already believed, I implore you to Believe in Jesus.

When you choose to believe in Him, all of these promises are added unto you…they are yours for keeps baby! You are a child of promise and all these things have been inherited unto you. You are a son or a daughter of an everlasting all powerful King and he won’t withhold no good thing from YOUIF GOD IS FOR YOU, WHO CAN BE AGAINST YOU!  It is written,”He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall He not with Him also freely give us ALL things. (Romans 8:32 NKJV)”

It has been FREELY given, it has been FREELY given, it has been FREELY given (3x for you slow folks lol) …Sooo FREELY RECEIVE IT! You have the authority, the power, the right standing with and in God, which you did not have to work for but had chosen to accept as a gift.  It is not your righteousness, but it is Christ’s righteousness that you wear.  It is not what you have done, but it’s what Jesus has already done for you! And as an added bonus, you have the resurrection power to tell your Lazarus to “COME FORTH!”

Sidebar: Referring back to Jesus waiting 2 WHOLE days before going to see about Lazarus (John 11:6), I believe sometimes things and people have to die (not always a literal physical death…I’m referring to spiritual…a complete transformation process) the very life has to be dried up from that situation or with certain relationships in your life in order for God to do a new thing concerning those relationships and/or life!  And not only that, but to show He is God, that He is Lord, thee Creator of the heavens and the earth!

So I dare you, I double dog dare you ( had to go back childhood on ya lol) to use your authority and start declaring to the earth, to your body, to your situations, to dead relationships, to every dead place and every dead thing to arise from the dead and be made whole, anew, and ALIVE….. I DARE YOU TO DO IT….and watch my God and His Word work!

With that being said, on the count of three,  I challenge you to speak life out of your dead situations. You ready??? Ok.  1…2….3…. “_______, COME FORTH!”




I had to go deeper.  These past 2 years since the summer of 2011 I had to do a lot of extracting, debugging,  and removing files from my over-driven memory, because I was totally trashed with everything and everyone’s MESS.  My operation and how I was operating  was poor , scattered and having no sense of clear direction whatsoever regarding the way I was journeying and most importantly MYSELF. I was powering down whether I liked it or now. I was coming to my end… literally… the end of myself. The fuel was gone and my hope was fizzling out. Oh…and the road I was traveling on was disappearing right before my eyes. THEE …END.  I had nothing left.  I gave it my ALL and I had gone the route that seemed to be best for me and what did I receive? Nothing but Confusion. Heartbreak. Strife. Drama.  Stress. Deception. LIES. “ Did I really come to my end?”  “No… really… Wait! Is this all there is concerning my life?!” These were all the questions that echoed aloud in my mind. It was the summer of 2011 in the month of July, I was sitting at the river walk on a bench facing the river while simultaneously talking to myself and to God. I remember being very still and very quiet  as I gazed out over the river…silent.  I remember thinking to myself “What now? Yet in still I remained silent. I didn’t want to move …I didn’t want to be too consumed in my thoughts so much that I would drown out His Voice. I needed to hear Him so I sat… veryyyy still. And like that… It was pressed on my heart to write. So I pulled out my notebook, turned to a clean page, and I wrote:

       “The world goes round, round, and round again. Everyone is moving and Everyone is searching. But I am trying to stay still to hear my Maker’s Voice. I too am searching in quiet desperation. I am  in need of something, but don’t  know what. I thought I would never end up ‘here’ wherever ‘here’ is but I am ‘here’…searching and listening. While the world is still going round…While the people are constantly moving and searching… and yet… I remain still…I don’t want to miss Him.”                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   6/13/2011

“ So What now God…what now? Where do I go from here now?” I whispered quietly in my thoughts.

Then, I had a vision. I saw Jesus standing on the water with his arms opened gesturing for me to come near, as if he wanted me to walk on water. No, that’s what I literally saw and that’s what he LITERALLY wanted me to do! Peace overwhelmed me and I then knew.  I knew God wanted to take me in another direction, on unfamiliar territory, never traveled before. I had to go deeper.  However,  it was left to me to either choose to be complacent and to try and figure out my life with my finite reasoning or leave all that I had ever known concerning my life and FOLLOW HIM.   I wrestled with the thought of it and I’m not even going to hold you up…It scared the CRAP out of me. My whole entire life I was in control, well I thought I did. And to now start over and not have a blueprint or even a CLUE of what my life was now going to be or look like…the thought of it alone had TERRIFIED me.

But what drove me was that I had nothing to lose. I was spent. I counted my cost and I knew in my heart of hearts I wanted to live a meaningful fulfilled life. Now I may not have known what It would have look like then, but I knew enough in my heart that God did. So I chose the latter. I Chose to go deeper…

“As the deer pants for the water brooks,

So my soul for You, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God

…Deep calls unto deep at the noise of Your waterfalls… (Psalms 42:1-2,7 NKJV).”